Is this really happening??

So I'm told (by reputable sources of course) that it's best to be honest and vent how you feel, right?

OK, here goes...

WHAT IN THE HELL AM I DOING!!???

Ok, vented, out of the way.

I'm sitting in the Indianapolis airport having well, lets be honest a sub-par meal and I can't help but sit here and dwell on the fact that my journey to Sydney begins in oh, 35 minuets or so and if I'm honest (as I'm told its best to do) it scares the living crap out of me. Not only is this a massive change that snuck up on me quicker than a fit ninja in the night but it adds to the the stress that is already crowding the limited space that is my mind.

let me give you a rundown of the the events that have preceded this point if I may.

The stress of moving to a foreign country albeit exciting, terrifies me for the simple fact that despite my best efforts I still cannot find a damn place to live. There is also the teeny tiny fact that I don't know if I'm coming back to IU to finish my education. This fact by itself stressed me to the point of no sleep. Adding to this already magical amalgam of fun is that if it wasn't hard enough to say goodbye to the people that have made the biggest impact on me I had to say goodbye to someone yesterday that I was not ready to let go of. Someone who has made a huge, positive impact and is someone that I had the pleasure of getting to know and who turned an otherwise cool and calm person into a 15 year old blithering idiot ( in a good way of course).

Needless to say the last 72 hours have been...interesting at best but they haven't been without good times and at least a little self reflection.

Now that I am about to board my first of many flights in my 26 hour journey around the world my mood is hesitant at best. Trust me I'm fully aware of the fact that this opportunity to live in Sydney and work with Fleishman-Hillard is once in a lifetime. I also know that it will do wonders for me in terms of a future career as well as expanding my somewhat limited knowledge of the public relations world as well as being oh I don't know...one hell of an experience. Again, trust me, I know what this opportunity is and what it will bring but that doesn't mean that my mind and heart aren't somewhere else at this very moment. Thats not to say that I'm not going to do my best and dive into this experience head first and soak up as much of it that I can.

That said, I am going to board the flight bound for the ever illustrious Dallas Fort Worth for a four hour layover, exciting stuff I know.

Be back soon...